I'm losing my mind...
I know everyone will die one day.
Before, I thought I've prepared myself, I would lost my baby.
When I knew it, I can't stop crying, my heart is broken.
Besides my family, he's the most important one.
They had to tell me on tht day, they shouldn't have told me 2 or 3 days later.
How can I stay in NZ without doing anything!!
He's my baby, 17 years...
I know it's a long time, more than my half live
However, I stll want to have he more time.
I didn't regart coming to NZ.
Because I knew it's all my fault!!!
I've had a lot of problems so far.
I believed I could solve every one of them, it's my challenge.
But not this one...I can't accept that!!!
God...why do you do that?
He's my child,I just left Taiwan 2 weeks...
I knew he's too old, maybe it's good for him.
But I can't accept it....I can't...
If he is with me, I must feel him.
But I don't !!!
Where is my baby? NZ is not so far, come to see me.
God, please let me see him, I really miss him.
God. please give him guide, give him direction.